Thursday, December 20, 2012

Merry Christmas

Hello?  Anyone still out there?  If not, I totally don't blame you one little bit!  Yes, I'm still alive (thank you so much to all of you who have sent emails/tweets/etc. checking in on me) - just busy soaking up every ounce of life right now.  Abby is at the most fun (albeit sometimes very trying) age ever and I just can't get enough of her or our little family.  Hence, this little place on the internet has been completely abandoned for the past 8 months or so.  I really hope to get back into blogging in 2013, but I've never been one to write just to write so if my heart's not completely in it then that may not happen either.  We'll just have to see what life has in store for the future.

As a mini update of sorts, we finally sold our house in September, searched high and low for a new one, found nothing, decided to build, put all of our belongings in storage and are living with my wonderful in-laws until the fateful day when our builder says it's all finished and is officially ours.  We're shooting for February or March. We were able to visit my family in Raleigh over Thanksgiving and Abby turned two earlier this month which was celebrated with a Dora/Elmo themed party.  Now we're busy with Christmas festivities and beginning new family traditions with our sweet girl since this is the first year she really gets it. 

That's about all I have for the moment, so until 2013 (or whenever the mood strikes again) I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

So What Wednesday

Thanks so much for all of the ideas/support/emails/tweets on my last post.  You girls are the best!  I haven't 100% decided what I'm going to do just yet, but I'm leaning towards giving Weight Watchers another chance and incorporating some other stuff in with it.  I'll let you know what ends up working for me.

In the mean time, it's time for So What Wednesday over at L.A.I.D.

So what if:
  • I bought all of the ingredients for a recipe last night and now have no idea what said recipe is. I thought pregnancy brain was supposed to disappear once you were no longer pregnant? Yeah, that didn't happen for me!
  • I'm sitting here blogging instead of working even though this is one of my busiest weeks of the year and I have more work to do than I know what to do with.  Procrastination at its finest.
  • I really hate my career.  I am thankful for my job and I like the people I work with, but, dear Lord, I'd give anything to actually enjoy going to work everyday.  Seriously, accounting has got to be the worst career field ever. I wish I could go back in time and slap that stupid girl who chose this as her major instead of nursing!  WTF was she thinking?
  • I'm obsessed with Draw Something (username bambrika) even though I'm pretty sure I'm the world's worst artist (seriously, 95% of my drawings contain some kind of verbiage for clarity-sake).  It makes me laugh uncontrollably at myself..
  • I'm counting down the days until The Hunger Games comes out (although I'm a little confused as to why the casting of Gale & Peeta wasn't switched).  I can't wait.
  • I'm also counting down the days (59) until we leave on our cruise. Mama needs a vacation ASAP!  
What are you saying "so what" to this week?  Visit Shannon and tell us all about it!

Happy hump day, everyone!


Monday, March 5, 2012


I sit here for the second day in a row with a Chick-fil-a #1 (no pickles) and sweet tea in front of me.  Why?  Because I have absolutely no will power when it comes to food.  Zip. Zero. Zilch.  None.

I say I want to lose weight, yet I have the hardest time giving up food in order to reach a weight at which I'm happy.  I think there's a saying - "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels."  Not in my mind.  In my mind there are few things in this world better to me than Chick-fil-a (or any number of other delicious foods).  Very few.

About a month and a half ago I took the plunge and signed up for Weight Watchers.  They were running a special and I know so many people (IRL and in the blog world) who have had great success using their program.  So I decided what the heck.  I'll give it a try.

And try it I did.  For about 3 weeks.  For 3 weeks I logged in before and after every meal to check point values for everything I even thought about eating.  For 3 weeks I only allowed myself to eat out 1 breakfast, 1 lunch, and 1 Starbucks per week.  Prior to that I was eating out almost exclusively breakfast and lunch during the week as well as getting my beloved Starbucks 3-4 times.  It was ridiculous!

So surely, even if I wasn't following point values, just pretty much giving up fast food should have helped me lose at least a few pounds.  Throw Weight Watchers on top of it and I was going to look amazing come May 5th when the husband and I leave for our cruise.  I may even be able to pack clothes from the pre-Abby era.  To say I was excited about this prospect would be a gross understatement. 

So what happened you ask?  I didn't lose one single freaking pound.  Not one!  How is that even possible?  While I wasn't counting calories (because that's not the Weight Watchers way) I would estimate that I was easily consuming on average at least 700 calories less per day than I did prior to joining.  Did I expect to see miracle numbers in those 3 weeks?  Absolutely not.  But did I expect to have at least lost a few pounds?  Yes, ma'am, I did.

So now I sit here extremely discouraged with most all of my motivation gone and I ask you for help.  What works for you guys?  How do you stay motivated?  What do you do to curb your cravings for things that taste oh-so-good, but are oh-so-bad for you?  Help a girl out!  Pretty please! 


Thursday, March 1, 2012

Bucket List

If you're like me you have a million and one things you want to do throughout your lifetime.  I've been wanting to write these down for a while now so I figure today is as good of a time as any.  So here it is - my bucket list (in no particular order).

  1. Swim/dive with dolphins
  2. Buy an old Victorian-style home and renovate it
  3. Design and build our forever home
  4. Watch Abby graduate from high school and college
  5. Watch Abby get married and have a family of her own
  6. Travel to Europe
  7. Live in NYC (even if just for a few months)
  8. Go back to the Caymans
  9. Visit all 50 states (I've been to 19 so far - NC, SC, TN, FL, GA, VA, TX, OR, WA, NV, AK, NY, CA, IL, AL, WV, MN, IN, MD)
  10. Scuba dive in Australia
  11. Hold a Koala cub
  12. Retire
  13. Be a SAHM (at least for a little while)
  14. Stay at an all-inclusive resort
  15. Go to nursing school and change careers
  16. See UT play football in all of the SEC stadiums
  17. Go to a Dave Matthews concert
  18. Go on a girls-only trip
  19. Take Abby to the American Girl store
  20. Go to Ikea
  21. Vacation in Wilmington, NC
  22. Scuba dive at a wreck site
  23. Visit Niagara Falls
  24. Go zip-lining at Bootleg Canyon in Boulder City, NV
  25. Go to Mardi Gras
  26. Go to a spa resort for at least a weekend
  27. Visit the Biltmore House
  28. Go snow-skiing in Colorado
  29. Find a career that I enjoy
  30. Re-read all of the Harry Potter, Twilight, & Hunger Games books
  31. Volunteer at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital
  32. Volunteer more period
  33. Find a church that we enjoy
  34. Read the entire Bible
  35. Go camping
  36. Go to the Kentucky Derby
  37. Visit Las Vegas with the husband (we've both been separately, but never together)
  38. Take Abby to Disney World
  39. Go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter
  40. Have a chef's kitchen
  41. Learn to sew
  42. Master shooting in manual
  43. Complete Abby's college fund
  44. Own a boat
  45. Visit Charleston, SC
So there it is - 45 things I hope to accomplish during my life at this point.  I'm sure this list will evolve and change throughout the years, but it's a good starting point anyway.  What's on your bucket list?

This post written as an entry to the $500 Good Financial Cents giveaway.


Monday, February 27, 2012

A Weekend of Firsts

First, I just want to say thank you to everyone who either commented on or sent me an email on my last post.  Your kind words and prayers mean more than you'll ever know.  Thank you!

On a lighter note, this weekend was pretty fabulous if I do say so myself.  Friday night we hung out at home and Abby took her first steps - 3 in a row.  I then tried for the rest of the weekend to get her to do it again without much luck.  I think she did it again twice, but only when we weren't really looking at her.  Life's about to get really exciting!

On Saturday Abby spent the night with her Mimi so the husband and I could have a very needed date night.  This is only the 2nd time Abby's spent the night over there and the first while I've been home (the other time happened while I was in Las Vegas for a work trip).  Needless to say, it was a much needed night without the baby for the hubs and me! 

We spent our night with dinner at McCabe Pub and a night out on the town at 3rd & Lindsley to see Andy Davis play.  If you ever have a chance to hear him play you should definitely go.  His music is so fun!  He's definitely one of our local favorites.  Bonus, since he's a local guy he's friends with many of the other local artists around town and Jeremy Lister and Richie Lister of Street Corner Symphony (any Sing Off fans out there?) were there and joined in on a few of the songs.  So fun!

We had a great time, but sadly I have zero pictures from the night.  We did joke with one another at dinner though that we really had no idea what to do since we weren't having to entertain the one year old!  We were also home and in bed by midnight.  Funny how life changes!

Now some of you may have heard there was a little blog conference in town this weekend which meant there were lots of fabulous ladies in town as well.  Sadly, I wasn't able to make it over to the hotel to meet everyone like I had hoped, but I was able to have breakfast Sunday morning with a few fabulous ladies (some who were here for the conference and some fellow Nashville bloggers).  Although none of us had ever met prior to this weekend, it was as if we had all known each other for years.  We talked and laughed for a good two hours and probably would have stayed longer if some of the girls didn't have to be at the airport.  This is why I love social media!

 Claire & Abby had so much fun together

 Lauren (& Claire), Annie, AP, Laura, Elizabeth, Jen, & me (& Abby)

We ended Sunday by attempting to take Abby to the park.  Unfortunately, the one we chose was more for older kids so I took her down the slide a few times and we called it a day, headed over to the mall to get her fitted for real shoes, and then headed home to watch the Oscars.  Well, Abby and I watched them anyway.  Happy Monday, everyone. 


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Well THAT was unexpected

I'm about to put it ALL out there.  Please don't be mean (or judge) - we all have skeletons and things we can't control.  However, we all also have the opportunity to learn from those if we so choose.  And while these are my skeletons, they are also a big part of what has made me the person I am today.  I'd also like to say that this is not a "woe is me" type of post and, although, it could most certainly be read that way, this is not how it's intended.  I'm simply telling part of my story - the good with the bad.  That is all.

Last Thursday morning I received a phone call - one that would rock my world far harder than I'd ever imagined.  My father had passed away the night before.  If we had anything that resembled a "normal" relationship then I would have expected to be a complete wreck over this news.  We, however, definitely did NOT have a "normal" relationship...or really any relationship at all for that matter.

You see, my father made some very poor decisions throughout his 51 years (yeah, my parents were babies when they got married and had me) on this earth and because of those decisions I made the choice years ago that he had lost the opportunity to be a part of my life.  For most all of my life he was either in prison or on the run because of drugs or other petty crimes (I'm not discounting his crimes by any means, but he wasn't a hard-core criminal - he harmed himself, but as far as I know he never did anything to harm other people.  Not really sure why I feel the need to explain that, but I do).  Honestly, I don't know all of the details - I just know what I've been told by others, but I've been told by many that he wasn't a bad person.  He had lots of demons that he could never escape.  And while that may be true, I decided long ago that until those demons were under control I didn't want him to be a part of my life.  Because if I had followed that same logic with my own life, then chances are I wouldn't be the person I am today - just sayin'.  Right or wrong this was the decision I made and the decision I will now have to live with forever.  I'll never get the chance to know if we could ever have a somewhat "normal" relationship or if he was ever able to overcome the demons in his life.   I'll never know for sure and I think that's one of the things that upsets me most.  That and the fact that he probably died thinking that his only child hated him.

Not that it matters anymore, but I didn't hate him.  I was extremely disappointed in and ashamed of him, yes, but I didn't hate him.  Other than never being an actual father to me over my almost 30 years of life, he never harmed me in any way and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he did love me.  That love just wasn't enough to keep him out of trouble. 

A couple of years ago during one of his many stints in prison he tried to contact me, but I wasn't ready to trust him yet so I turned him away again.  I didn't trust that he had changed this time like he claimed.  I've found out things over the past weekend that make me think he may have finally been on the right path, so now I question that decision and find myself wishing that I could go back and at least give him the benefit of the doubt if even for just a few minutes so I could know for sure.  Clearly I can't so I'm left wondering.  I've been through a lot in my life, but this by far is the most difficult situation I think I've ever found myself involved with.  Quite honestly, it sucks.  Plain and simple. 

The only good thing I have been about to get out of it is the hope that I learned a difficult lesson.  And that?  Forgive while you have the chance because tomorrow that chance may be gone.

Now, that I've gotten to this point - I'm not 100% sure of where I was going with this or even why I'm choosing to share it, but I am.  So there it is - my father died and I'm way more upset about it that I ever thought possible and unfortunately there's not a darn thing I can do to change the path that brought me here.


Wednesday, February 15, 2012

So What Wednesday

I'm linking up with one of my favorites, Shannon, today.

So what if:
  • I haven't blogged in FOREVER (other than Abby's monthly letters...which are ALWAYS late) and I keep putting off returning because I have no idea where to pick up.  Maybe I'll just do it and act like I never left.  Maybe.
  • one of the main reasons I don't blog anymore is because I can't seem to find time to upload pictures to the freaking computer.  And let's not even talk about editing said pictures.  I mean, can someone please just come do this stuff for me?!?!?
  • I am completely overwhelmed with joy that one of my sorority sisters who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer almost 3 weeks ago had a 100% successful surgery and is now cancer-free.  Miracles do happen and God is good!
  • I just put myself on the wait-list for a Blissdom ticket even thought I know I can't get off work.  Maybe I'll just come to the stuff in the evenings and on Saturday.  
  • the only reason I want to go to Blissdom is to meet all my bloggy friends and because I'll feel like I'm missing out on something (I have a MAJOR case of FMS in case you haven't already realized that) if I don't get to go.
  • the announcement of Rascal Flatts playing on Saturday night probably has absolutely nothing to do with me getting on that wait-list either. ;)
  • even if I don't end up at the actual conference I'm super excited about the Blissdom breakfast we have scheduled for that Sunday morning.  I can't wait to meet some fellow Nashville girls as well as one of my bloggy favorites - AP!  Seriously, I get giddy thinking about it!  I'm so lame!  Btw, if you're still going to be here Sunday morning and you want to come, let us know and we'll send you the details.
What are you saying "so what" to this week?